Waiting...

"The Grand essentials are- Something to do~ Someone to love~ Something to hope for..."
~Allen Chalmers

First...my beautiful daughter - who is such an easy kid - really... just very non drama- ( most of the time) came to me in tears... "Mom- I am sorry- I have to tell you something- I feel REALLY bad..."
gulp.
"What is it?"
" I know how much you love it and I feel just sick bout it- but I dropped your camera and it is broke... really broke."
relief.
Yes~ I am very sad- I can not replace my camera right away - I love it- and I use it ALL the time -but her humble heart and willingness to be direct and honest were so evident I felt NO anger and really just compassion for her. She likes to do the right thing and this was one of those times where it was an accident... and no right or wrong is at play... just that dastardly gravity.
Yes~ the same one that is pulling at my skin and other bits.



The real clincher for me is that this and a few similar happenings underscore a larger picture that I am walking through. You see- I am waiting for news...
there is a deadline and a ticking clock- I wont/ can't get in to the details but it is the finish line of a drawn out season that has yielded some great emotional and spiritual fruit - but has also wreaked havoc on some very practical and precious parts of life.

This news will determine the direction of my business, the rest of the summer and likely the year for us... so it is significant news.

It will most definitely determine whether or not I am able to replace my camera, or other impending needs and strong desires on my short but sacred list.

What I am trying to do is make the most of the waiting- to really exercise the belief that happiness is our circumstances... But Joy is an attribute that we -if we choose- we can be freely endowed with. This is truly a discipline... because that good ol' human trait of "wanting and wishing for" is in every fiber of our being.

Patience and trust on the other hand are divine traits that we must practice to walk in... they do not come by default.

So like the great quote I found above- I have plenty to do...the few things I have whittled my life down to~ need some TLC.

I am RICH in having ones to love... that is something that no circumstance can dictate -OUR capacity to love like crazy.

I have much to hope for- it is what sparks my heart when I begin to grow weary...

In the meantime ( I now officially understand that phrase) I welcome any prayers and wishes, they are the most powerful force of all.

I will be practicing contentment and assurance. I will definitely be putting my energy toward loving the family and friends I have been lavished with.

Happy Monday.

Phil 4:11~I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.